Once again I�m writing this, as my eyes are shutting, but oh well.

I have to go the next two days without seeing him and I�m depressed about it. I don�t know what the hell I�m going to do when he goes away for four months! But I don�t really want to think about that now. I want to enjoy the next month that I have with him.

I hope Sarah�s party goes okay. We hunted up the Benson�s and they both still swear up and down that they are coming, but I wouldn�t count on it. I hope they do. It has to be all six of us or someone is going to feel left out. Watch, Stan will be the only one that doesn�t show. I�ll be very upset with him. I wouldn�t stay the night if he wasn�t going to go. I�d feel stupid.

I wish I knew what the hell was going on with me when it comes to him.

There is so much that I want to write, but right now, I�m too tired. I�ll write more tomorrow.

Held Back--Let Go

Clix me!

days until Stan goes to basic