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Ug. I just want to say thanks for the advice people have given me after the last entry. Whether it was meant in a nice way or not. And I totally agree that both Stan and I need to grow up. He's 18 and I'm 21, we should be able to have an adult relationship. My problem is that I've never had *any* sort of relationship before. I don't know how to do it. Sometimes all I want to do is be near him and the next second I'm freaking out and shoving him away. I know it's gotta be driving him crazy. Of course there is the issue that maybe I really do want to drive him away, so I pitch fits and latch onto the tiniest little thing and blow it all out of proportion. I know that has a lot to do with it. That and I have no idea what the fuck I am doing in this relationship. Does being in love take practice? I think I just need to tone down my emotional level and work on the rational side of my brain...if I still have one. Heh. It's not going to happen, but I should try. I guess I can't figure everything out at once. I'm guessing that love is a learning process
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